Impress One Step Gel Nails

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I found these at Walmart for about $5, so I figured I’d give them a try. I followed the directions exactly in order to accurately test them out. I even cut my nails down super short.

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I was really impressed after the initial application. The sticky was really sticky. The nail sizes were closer to my nails than most press-on nails I’d tried in the past. This was on Wednesday night.

The nails promise to be waterproof and last a week. I was hopeful that this was true… until Saturday aka cleaning day. Nails started popping off shortly after I started my Saturday chores.

Needless to say, the remaining nails were removed Saturday night and I will not be repurchasing.

December Bomibox

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Cosrx Low pH Good Morning Gel Cleanser – I was never consistent with washing my face in the morning until I received this cleanser. I love the tea tree smell and it leaves my face feeling clean, but not overly dried out. I’ve noticed that my makeup application is much smoother after using this to clean my face.

Nature Republic  Real Nature Green Tea Mask – When I unfolded this mask it seemed very large, but it actually fit my face very well. There was a bit of overlap on my hair, but that is better than being too small in my opinion. My skin felt very smooth and moisturized after this mask.

SNP Gold Collagen Ampoule Mask – This was another nice fitting mask. It had small flecks of gold foil. That was a nice surprise. I don’t think it added anything to the effect of the mask, but it was fun. I did feel that my skin was nice and plump after this mask.

Mizon Snail Recovery Gel Cream – This can be used as a serum or sleeping pack. I prefer to use it as a serum. I don’t feel that it’s quite thick enough to be used as a sleeping pack on my skin type. I do use this several times a week. I love most snail products and this is a great serum. It’s moisturizing without being too heavy.

Milky Piggy Carbonated Bubble Clay Mask – I really enjoy this product. It’s fun and effective. It says to use before cleanser, but I use it as a cleanser. I use after my oil cleanser. I just felt like using after removing makeup would be more effective. I use this once or twice a week. I apply, let foam, massage in, let foam again, then wash off. One important tip is to avoid applying to the top lip and tip of nose. I love how my face feels after this.

Innisfree Jeju Volcanic Blackhead Out Balm – I’ve only used this a few times. You are supposed to use between first and second cleansers by messaging into pores to remove blackheads. I haven’t noticed much effect, but I don’t have a ton of blackheads to thoroughly test it on.

Etude House Missing U Hand Cream (Seal) – Other than being adorable, Missing U Project is a project to remember and protect endangered wild animals by reminding people of those animals and donating an amount of profits to animal protection associations. The hand cream isn’t anything special, other than the project itself. Once I’ve used up all of this cream, I plan to refill with others I have around the house. I keep this on my bedside table and it makes me smile every night before bed.

Innisfree Capsule Recipe Pack (Pomegranate) – I’ve only tried this once. It was a bit strange. As I was applying it to my face, it kind of clumped up on me. It looked gross. I seemed to plump my skin, but not exactly firm it.

Misc. Samples – I haven’t tried these out yet. Some will be in my next giveaway.

November Bomibox

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Innisfree It’s Real Squeeze Mask – I liked this mask. Although, I normally like any skin care product with rose. It was a nice fit and I like the texture of the material used. I was moisturizing and smelled lovely.

Leaders Meta Tox Mask – The fit on this mask wasn’t great, but it did help with my acne. I also noticed a brightening effect.

Etude House Collagen Eye Patch – I wouldn’t consider these a favorite eye patch. They dried very quickly and seemed a bit counterproductive. I much prefer the Tony Moly My Little Pet Eye Patch.

Innisfree No Sebum Mineral Powder – This is a powder that I do not like. It settles into my fine lines and clings to dry patches.

Cosrx Ultimate Moisturizing Honey Overnight Mask – I do like this overnight mask. It is very moisturizing and I like the texture.

Son & Park Beauty Water – This can be used as a toner or a cleansing water. I prefer it as a toner. I use this when I need a gentle and moisturizing toner.

Benton Honest TT Mist – I’m not very impressed with this. I have used it more as an essence than a moisturizing mist. This might work better for someone with dry skin than combo skin.

Etude House Cat Headband – I was soooo excited to receive this. I have wanted this headband since I discovered Korean Beauty.

Cosrx Samples – I haven’t tried these, they will be in my next giveaway.

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Mission accomplished

Well, almost. Tiny T is now sleeping in her own bed. It wasn’t a huge fight either. I’ve been talking to her about it for a couple weeks now and I guess she was ready. Mummy was definitely ready! 

I’m in the euphoric stage after my depression hole. I know my cycles now, so I know this won’t last. I’m going to ride it out and hope for the best though. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow evening. I already warned her that next time she sees me I’ll be in the up end, but she can’t let me quit because “I’m better now.” Realizing that I go through these cycles has been a bit life changing. I know the bad times won’t last, but I also know the good times won’t either. I’m in the euphoric everything is perfect stage right now, but soon that will transition into blah, then woe is me, then extreme sadness, then numbness, then back up again.  It really is constant.  I get a few weeks of each stage.  I’m hoping medication will balance that out some. We’ll be discussing my plan for getting better tomorrow and maybe a medication assessment.  

I’m starting to think that I’m a person that needs to be surrounded by butterflies and rainbows.  That’s hard for me because I don’t see myself as that kind of person.  I think I need those people to balance my darkness.  I’ve been listening to upbeat spiritual type podcasts and YouTube videos lately rather than makeup videos and vlogs. I need to join a new circle, but that’s extremely hard for me.  I can’t replace my sisters and that’s what it feels like to me.  😥

I’ll try to update this weekend and post some pictures from Yulemas. Happy Holidays everyone. 

Getting back to me….

I know I’m slack about posting regularly, but I’m really trying to work on that. I need to make a weekly post part of my weekend routine. 

Anyways, here’s a bit of an update.  

I did get in to see the therapist. She is actually a social worker and she’s perfect for me. She even calls to check on me.  I have another season planned for the 20th after work. She’s even in the office after 5! We are going to go over my “plan” and things for me to do to get better. Medication is an option.  I’m ok with that. I need something to balance my brain out. I’m exhausted from this Rollercoaster of emotions.  

Beyond that, I have been focusing on what I need to do for myself. As a working mom that is really hard for me. Being an introvert (INTJ) on top of that makes it even harder. I have been thinking a lot about what truly makes be happy and what I need to change about my life to get back to myself. 

Part of this is my spirituality and incorporating that into my daily life. I’m back to studying herbalism and homeopathy.  That’s a way for me to be spiritual in daily life. I heard a quote that sparked me, “Nature is life.” 

Another thing I need to do for myself is to get Miss T to sleep in her own bed. Between my anxiety and her kicking me all night, I’m not getting enough consistent sleep. Sleep is definitely a trigger for me.  Plus being so introverted, I need some alone time.  I’m definitely not getting that with her sleeping with me.  Between work and home life I’m with people 24/7. That’s not going to work for me. 

My marriage is also suffering and that’s not ok. I haven’t had husband snuggles in a very long time. I have no desire for sex and I’m sure that’s part of it.  Who wants to have up schedule sex and add to the challenge with having to relocate the toddler (who wakes up every time). It’s just become a challenge I haven’t wanted. Sex shouldn’t be work and that’s what it feels like. I know the depression adds to it and the anxiety of getting pregnant again terrifies me. Obviously, my body just isn’t going to work until I sort all of this out.  My hormones all came back normal and the gynecology has no explanation for me.  

I will get better. I will get back to myself. I will continue to work on this for the same of my sanity and the happiness of my family and success of my marriage. I will conquer this beast!

Lady Bits and Mental Health

I went to the gynecologist this morning. I went in thinking that all of my problems were remainents of the depo shot.  Turns out probably not. 

My doctor is checking my thyroid and hormone levels, but thinks that my depression and anxiety are only making problems worse. He was concerned about my answers on the mental health evaluation form. 

First thing he said to me was asking if I was on medication for it.  He handed me the packet with the mental health providers information and told me to call today. 😐

So, here I sit waiting for a therapist to maybe see me today.  If they don’t have a 12:00 cancelation, I won’t be getting treatment any time soon. They only see new patients between 7:00-2:30 and that doesn’t work with my work schedule.  Once again, road blocks stop me from getting the help I need.  

In my last post I said I was concerned about being bi-polar.  That’s still a legitimate concern.  I’m on the downward spiral now. It normally lasts a few weeks, but I’m tired of this cycle.  

I want to be happy and balanced. I’ve finally accepted that medication is the only thing that will help that.  

My depression and anxiety is now effecting my marriage and that’s unacceptable. I need to be 100% for my family.  

Please send me lots of positive energy over the next few weeks. I’ll need it.  

Once I’m back up, I’ll forget about this and I’ll convince myself that I don’t have a problem. I need to see someone in the immediate future to truly get help.  Someone that won’t let me stop coming just because I feel better.